I want to be righteous and want to be good at all times, I want to please everyone else, Most of the time I don’t consider what I feel, disregard my belief. I couldn’t stand on my own as someone will get offended if I speak out my thoughts. Admittedly, half of my life, I live this way, always considered other emotions and anticipate how would they respond to whatever actions or words I utter.
But I came to realize that, even if how good you are to others, there is something they can comment on you negatively, as I remember the story of Jesus Christ, he feeds, heals, saves his people but in return, he was betrayed by Judas who was one of his disciples.
There was a point in my existence, I asked: “why I considered them if I have my own to be considered too?”. Is it because I’m that considerate that others took advantage of the kindness shown to them? And sometimes they tend to abuse and hurt me for some reason.
Yes, righteousness matters but I think our emotions matter too. There a lot of considerations, reflections before doing such action, It is right to be right but it is also right to be you. Living peacefully doesn’t mean that you will have to follow what others perceived you to do, but inner peace and a quiet mind can achieve real happiness and fulfillment. Sometimes you just have to know yourself, understand your needs and determine your wants, belongingness may at times push you to hide the real you, but it is just temporary, you may find yourself you belong at times but not for a long time.
For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.
We are driven to be seen as who we truly are, yet authenticity takes courage as well as self-awareness. Even if our culture often favors the less than real, those who are authentic cope better with challenges and lead happier. -psychology.com-
In the end, we choose who we want to be, we are the driver of our own life, we have the wisdom to decide and courage to do what we wish to do, follow your heart with the guidance from up above.
This is me: imee masangkay