When I was a kid, I always taught that when I grow up, life would be more beautiful. That I can do anything I want easily. That I don’t have to plan anything. But as I come of age, little snippets of reality sets in.
During those times in elementary and high school grade, I never really bothered to think of what I will be in the future. I don’t have a clue. My mindset before is that I just want to graduate and have a job, and that’s it.
Yes, I dealt with a lot of problems and challenges in life, but I didn’t know what to expect or how to handle things as they come. Mostly financial ones. What I did, I became a working student to finish my degree. I worked, but still, I have no plans as I go along the path that I am walking. I just go with the flow.
Then, I got married. It was fun and happy at first, but the saddest part came – when I had a miscarriage. Depression kicked in. But with the hands of the Lord, he helped me stood up again. We are blessed once again with a child. I was given a chance to become a mother and it is such a wonderful blessing. My life changed. My whole world instantly changed when I gave birth. And with that, it gave me a reason for my being. That now, I have a purpose.
Motherhood is not easy. Raising a child is not easy. It is tiring, yet a fulfilling one. My husband and I always make sure to do our best and instill good values and explain everything as much as we can to our kid. Who says parenting is easy? It is hard work. Of course, we have our imperfection and we learn from it.
Nowadays, we are surrounded by gadgets and the fast way of life. Where freedom and discipline must go hand in hand. I always think very clear on what steps and decisions to make. To protect and guide my child. To nurture and inspire her as to what I believe is best. When I was young, I don’t have plans, but now I have goals and dreams and it’s not just for me, but for my family.
~Vanessa Joy Buera