When I was young, I’ve always thought that someday I’d either be a soldier, police woman and a celebrity which is very unlikely to happen honestly speaking. Never have I seen myself in the position that I am in right now. A not so young lady who is now about to face the challenges of having teenage boys and a daughter nearing her adolescence.
I’ve been boyish during my childhood years. Having three male siblings is a great factor if you ask why. Play like a boy, think like them and smell like one as well. This went on until my 9th grade where JS prom started. This is the time when most girls feel like prince charming is coming, at least that’s what I thought. This was the time when I met my prom partner who eventually turned out to be my husband. The connection had its unpleasant days but most was fine, just like any other relationships. Both of us had the same principle in life, “YOLO” kids as they say. Junior high was about to end and my family was looking forward to my days of glory until the turn of events, I realized that I was already expecting a baby.
Change is inevitable and I know to myself that there are a lot of things that I should work out in terms of school and being a young mom with zero knowledge of raising a child. I had to be ready physically, emotionally and of course, financially. Physically, my body gets too tired of juggling studies and taking care of my babies. Did I just say babies? Yes, I got pregnant in 2 consecutive years. Emotionally, you get drained as well. Stressing yourself if you are indeed doing the right thing and making sure that everything is in place. Financially, this was the greatest challenge of all. I am thankful that I am blessed with a supportive family and a husband who is a good provider at our young age but come to think of it, we’ve gone through worst as well.
There are a lot of factors that contributes to a young moms struggle. Criticisms from people you don’t even know but I made sure to recover from it and just shake them off. Being indecisive leads to more confusion until I came to the point of being able to make a solid resolution.
At this point, I can say that what happened a few years ago was the best commitment I had in life. It’s rewarding that at my age, I have 2 grown up boys who I can speak with like real adults, a daughter who I can still relate with despite all the changes that has taken place in this world. Imagining the future when your children would have their own families and you are still there strong enough to witness and be able to guide them.
To our young moms out there, it is truly difficult to cope up at first. Rest assured that with your commitment to whatever you do, you can plan out the direction of your life as you desire.
Rose Marianne L. Balonglong